Steps

In 2 weeks time, I'll be with Eric again :)

I am very excited. Right now, he is doing his part to heal and get back on track, and I am also taking steps and doing my part. I've been going to Al-anon for a few weeks and I really am responding well to it. I feel bad because I am not going as much as I would like to. I make excuses and make plans but at least I know I am doing what I can. I have to do that for us, but I also have to take care of me. I have to keep living my life.

The last meeting I went to really hit me hard, in a positive way. The theme was Slogans. You know them, "let go and let god," "one day at a time," "first things first," "live and let live," "this too shall pass." Some of them are cheesy as hell, but when someone said the last one out loud, it hit me like bricks. 

No secret that I am a super-311 fan. They have a song called This Too Shall Pass and their entire message is based around being positive and simple similar slogans. "Stay positive and love your life," "do what thou wilt," "from chaos comes clarity" and longer quotes, "if there's a shadow in your life than there's sunshine,"  etc. 

I realized this all starts with me. I need to change my outlook, I am doing my best. I already have some good stepping stones, but I have a lot to do. It was someone's 20th Al-anon birthday that week and everything she said meant a lot to me. It's healing to hear that this helps and this works for other people. I carry a lot of anger and negativity and react a lot. I need to find peace with myself and change the way that I respond. People hold a lot of negativity and anger in their hearts and that's something I really honestly try to steer away from, but it's really hard for me to just ignore it when it's constantly in my face. 

So, here's to doing my best. Meetings are good but I am also happy to have 311 such a huge role in my life, the positivity, my friends who are like family... "I've got a clique but it's more like a family" I mean, there's not much else I could ask for. The rest has to come from me :)

It's also meant a lot to me to share what I am going through and have friends and acquaintances reach out to me. That's what the program is all about and that means so much to me. It's really a blessing. 

so, THANK YOU. 

life without a camera

...is boring. I have lots of things and thoughts to share with you, but (I don't have a camera....) I am easily distractible and I have work to take home every night (even on holidays, hurrah!) I am working on a mac also which makes things 10000 times harder. I don't know how to do anything! curse apple and i-things and all of that. iCan't believe iWant an iPhone. (sorry I had to!)

Anyway.

Eric started rehab yesterday and he "graduates" July 31st. I get to see him when he completes 26 days. I can't wait.

so excited I can't waaaait...

I read this book yeaaars ago and every time I see the preview I bawl. I am sooo excited for tomorrow night!!!

official trailer 

guess who I went to see tonight?

at a 600 person capacity club?

this weekend

On Saturday I *helped my family in their Relay For Life. Unfortunately, my shoes decided to hate on me and give me a blister so I only walked a few laps (BOOO!) but I did donate $50 in the form of a silent auction... and I got...

A 2 HOUR MASSAGE!

I am really really excited. I never really splurge on anything and although Eric is great and can give a near professional massage he lives in MD and he is not always very generous on massages. So I can't wait, I want to book this ASAP! :)

Today I picked up some great finds and perhaps I will show them off soon :)

(the $39 was actually $9 as well! yesssss)

Guess where? ;) I even bumped into a new 90210 starlet. I remember years back I bumped into Mischa Barton in the same store! Anyway, four days of work to go then I am off for a glorious TEN DAYS while our production office is closed for our summer holiday. Friday I am getting up bright and early and heading up to NorCal to visit my best gal Hol :) I cannot wait to see her! It has been an embarrassingly long time since we've spent any quality time together. Probably March 2006! Super excited to see her new HOUSE!

Look at us as babies! 311 tour '04 :)

Today in history...

2001.

I was 16. I was finishing my sophmore year of high school, and super-mega-crazy obsessed with Stone Temple Pilots and 311 (surprise surprise!) and this day was just about The. Biggest. Day. Ever!

Somehow, the planets aligned and the CD release dates of my two all time faves fell on the same day. I remember getting out of school, driving to the store, and buying both From Chaos and Shangri-La Dee Da and completely overflowing with ecstasy. I listened to 311 in the car then got home and laid on my bed and cranked up the STP cd. 

311's 6th album and Stone Temple Pilots's 5th... and final :( but  supposedly...maaaaybe, right now, they are recording another one. I am not holding my breath! 

Last year, I had the shock/pleasure of my (still-17-year-old-mind's) life when STP reunited and I was invited to their reunion show. INVITED! it was insane. I quit my job in Colorado, packed all my shit and moved back to LA in the span of a week and a half. Probably insane, but it was really a once in a lifetime thing to be bused up to Houdini's house and see STP's first show in yeaaars. And it was beyond completely amazing. It was so great, so magical. They played Lady Picture Show and I cried. During Trippin' I had to go into the bathroom and call a friend and cry. Totally mortifying, I really was a teenager that night. 

Here's a few pics, I didn't want to post too many:

Another great STP/311 coincidence happened last year. I practically had a heart attack. (yes, I am the. biggest. loser. on. the. planet.) 311 played Red Rocks on July 1 and STP played Red Rocks on July 2. !!! Red Rocks is practically my favorite venue on the planet. It alone is magic, but throw in my two favorite bands ever, for 10 years and forever on, I am happy. Ecstatic :) Maybe I'm easy to please. I do appreciate the little things in life.

Oh and BTW, I was on TV when 311 was on Jimmy Kimmel a few weeks back. It's going to rerun *Monday night but here's a teaser :)