Friday, June 18, 2010

I LOVE LA




I'm freaking out. I don't necessarily believe in fate but several things and planets aligned to get me home at this exact moment. I do believe that things happen for a reason and when a door closes, life has other plans for you. I loved being home just in time for the Lakers/Celtics series. I'm such a sports nut. College football is my #1 but I do love my Lakers. I went to happy hours and enjoyed games with my dad. Last night I went out in Hermosa Beach and it was a crazy celebration! SO FUN! The whole city of Los Angeles was buzzing. Made me emotional the last two days for sure. 




So, tomorrow the swapaholics are hosting a Summer Swap here in SoCal. Yet I'm having a hard time trying to get anyone to go with me! (my sister wants just said she'll go! yay!) I am so down for this, what a great idea. I know jenloveskev is into the group and I love her fashion, so I am there! Nothing pays off if you're not a little brave, right? My mom will totally be down to go. haha and I can spot a gem anywhere. Here's all the info if you're in LA!


Hope to see you there! Have a great weekend :)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

10 things of the week

I worry that...

10 ...I won't ever be able to control my diet or get into a healthy work out routine. 
9 ...I'll never be comfortable with my body...
8 ...I'm not doing the right thing...
7 ....I'm not a good friend.
6 ...maybe I'm not a good person. 
5 ...I drink too much...
4 ...I'll lose everyone I care about.
3 ...I'm wasting time in regret. 
2 ....maybe I'm never good enough.
1 ...I'll never find love again. 


List is self explanatory this week. I am having a bit of a quarter life crisis. I am back in LA, rehired full time at DC, yet most of my things are still in the apartment back East. What am I doing? I don't know. But I'm going to take the summer to figure it out. Life is really weird and confusing right now. I really love and miss NYC but I really don't think it's a good time for me to be there. And as far as being in a relationship, that is on hold for now too. I don't know what the right thing to do is. I am very unhappy, very conflicted... I need some time to figure me out again. Mind and body... I am in a really bad place. I just want to get into a stable and healthy place with work and myself and cuddle with my dog. Of course I miss Eric and crave his love, but I don't know if I am being fair. So we're going to do the cliche thing and revisit us in a couple months. It's scary but it's what needs to happen. 

This is my 100th blog post. Thanks for reading. I will try to be more present, and you bet your ass I'm going to just be brutally honest from here on out. And a little more fun too, I promise. 


I just want to ask one thing, how do I get motivated to eat right and work out every day? I am getting there but it's hard to get up in the morning. Seriously. Help.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Summer break...

I'm going to take a break from blogging for a while. I don't know how long. I might pop in and out, but we'll see what I have time for. I don't want to say too much but let's just say... I'm going to be settled in on just one coast from now on. I have a lot to do in the next week. I'm a little freaked out, stressed out... I don't know if I'm making the right decision but I think this is what needs to happen. 


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

10 Things: An RX Bandits Version

Today's 10 things is a little different. I just wanted to share my love for a band that I've been talking a lot about lately. I know I annoyed my sister, I turned my best friend on to them and peeked my other best friend's curiousity by talking about them non-stop! 


So here's my 10 things RXB style. 


1. I've heard about RX Bandits for years... even had CD's gifted to me that I never ever listened to. I was very very set and proud of my hate. 

2. Grew up about 20 minutes from them... they are Long Beach locals and my parents live across the bridge in Lomita. I love/appreciate how proud the guys are of their hometown because I feel the same way. 

3. I was dragged to my first show. Went socially to my second... skipped the third and fell in love at my fourth. Here I decided to tell the lead singer (Matt Embree) how much I hated them... and how awesome they are that they could completely change my mind. He actually appreciated it and didn't punch me in the face.

4. Matt sings in Spanish. Be still my heart... seriously... eeeeeeeee... rockin' psychedelic hardcore but still a samba-stylish dance party. I don't think I could appreciate any band any more than that. 

5. ...And The Battle Begun. Such a romantic, desire filled, haunting love letter. It starts off with the sweetest yet stuttering, stalkerish note of "Am I cra... am I cra... am I crazy because I want to touch your skin?" and it plays on a struggle with drugs, pills, longing, temptation and loneliness. I feel like this album (and the next) are going to define a bit of the next few months of my life. I've already not been able to listen to any other artist... so it's not hard to imagine. 

6. Mandala. For some silly reason I thought to myself (and said to my friends) that I didn't know and/or like this album so much... boy WAS I KIDDING! It starts fast and furious and just keeps going and going. You cannot help but sing along with the first track, my effing spanish track is on here... "White Lies" has Matt playing keys and mesmerizing you... and "Bring Our Children Home" is a strong, political, meaningful anthem. This album doesn't ever stop playing in my head. 

7. These guys are so smart. SO SMART and so versatile. Most of the members play multiple instruments, split time between multiple projects... Matt's "Love You Moon" has him experimenting with a variety of instruments, including a beat boxing melody. Drummer Christopher Tsagakis has a similar one-man-band... Steve Choi goes from guitar to keys and back like nobody's business. 

8. They fly under the radar. They have been around for more than 15 years yet they still play clubs, they still hang out and drink with fans. It boggles my mind that they are still so approachable and humble and so grateful to their fans. 

9. Only For the Night. Not much to say other than this is probably my favorite song (and live song) ever. The lyrics, the music, the energy... completely uncomparable. Click ME for my youtube of the song from the Glasshouse show in April. (not to mention how damn cute the singer is when he dances around to it...ahhhh)

10. FULL ALBUM SHOWS! Who does that? oh yeah, the RX Bandits do. They record their albums in live format and they also have taken full album sets to Florida, Boston and 3 consecutive nights in NYC and now Los Angeles. For any music fan, seeing your favorite songs and favorite albums in their entirety is a rare treat. You have to respect and appreciate that... and get your ass out to check them out!! 


I know I have a lot of readers in Europe... please get out there and check out RX Bandits! They are touring your land as I type. I am insanely jealous and want you to see them! I hope that everyone else was a little enlightened... or furthermore annoyed with my new obsession. Please do me (and yourself!) a little favor though and check them out. 

Friday, May 21, 2010

lust lust lust

Summer is coming and I've got two things on my MUST DO (D.I.Y.) list. 

I came across this adorable Italian blogger (internodiciotto) and noticed she made herself some Chloe-inspired shorts! How brilliant!! I just love how feminine and flirty the edges are. 

I am a huuuge Chloe Sevigny fan and she is a very appropriate face for the brand... I love seeing her in the commercials, I think she is fresh and fun. I also love her acting... she is such a nut on Big Love. I love her and Ginnifer Goodwin.

I'm going to be on the hunt for some perfect jeans to cut up for this!

I saw this Hermes ad (I think) in Vogue first but today I saw it in my new Allure magazine (which inspired me in more ways than one... and I also actually saw a jewelry piece I did for one of my contract jobs... exciting!) anyway, in Allure they gave you a how-to guide on the hair do.  

I've been collecting scarves at street fairs for a while now, I have a really beautiful Oscar de la Renta scarf as well as three Vera Wang scarves. The funny thing is I really just pick the scarves that catch my eye and they turn out to be designer. I guess I am in the right field!


So I might try this look this weekend... I have a long white/blue scarf that would be perfect. Maybe we'll go to the Bleeker Street Fair on Sunday so I can pick up some boyfriend jeans for my other project :)


HAPPY WEEKEND everyone! xo

Thursday, May 20, 2010

10 things...Thursday

This week I missed my Tuesday deadline... I've luckily had a busy week so Monday was spent working with my friend Laura at her booth at a stationary trade show, it was very exciting, many good things to come. Tuesday I had a second interview/trial workday at a new job and then straight over to Gramercy to see Stone Temple Pilots. So here is my 10 thing list for the week. I am thinking of also turning it part into a bucket list a la MTV's The Buried Life. We'll see how I feel next week :) Lots of stuff going on.... stay tuned.




1. I made my dad wait in line for a rollercoaster for more than an hour then was too scared to go on. 

2. I've recorded at 311's studio.

3. I've been in an ambulance twice. 

4. I got my dog on 3/11/05. 

5. I sat onstage during an STP club show.

6. I crashed a snowmobile in the backwoods of Colorado. 

7. I have a sixth sense when it comes to judging character. 

8. I've traveled to another state, alone, to see 311. (and Incubus.)

9.  Michael Vartan once parked next to met at a grocery store lot. He met his fiance the same way.


10. I've climbed the Pyramid of the Sun & Moon outside of Mexico City.