Food journal

Not up to blogging much. The last couple of weeks have been really hard adjusting day to day without coming home to my best bud. Works been really killing me and I can't come home to relax as easy. SO I've really thrown myself into bootcamp and that's going great. I've decided that, that's that! I'm not going to let any loss bring me down. I'm grieving but I can only move forward, as in any situation I've been through lately. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger.


My trainer has been having us email him pics of our eats....so I will share with you the last few meals. It's so boring, what else can I do?! Thank gawd I love salmon and veggies and salads...but I mean, I need help! Suggestions? Any/all are appreciated :)

turkey variations via bristol farms salad bar/home cookin'

stir fry veggies with chicken and curry (via trader joes)

salmon dishes delivered to work...via Lala's & Lemonade

I love that the hard work def pays off. Love how my body feels and my clothes fit. My March vacay to Turks & Caicos is gonna be amazing :) PLUS, I've noticed a spike of lace in my underwear drawer...oops.

it's only Monday but I'm already counting the minutes... Heading to NorCal this weekend to see my favorite band RX Bandits and the sights and one of my dearest gal pals. Much needed mini vacay :)

One down...3 to go!

Just finished my first week of boot camp! My arms and legs are a little shaky but I am feeling good! Whoa exclamation points. Excuse me, I am really excited though, I'm becoming a salad junkie too. I'll throw up some of my faves this week. There's a cute spot by my work that has amazing salads but I can't rationalize paying more than $10 for a salad for lunch. For now, thank you Trader Joe's!

the view from the M-F spot, did the monday session & 2 sessions on weds!

Here's some snaps I took of the  5.5 mile hike we took this morning.  Man, I

 am in pain but it was awesome and it's going to be worth it for sure :)   Great

way to end a bad weekend & start the week.   Not so tough to keep yourself

motivated with such a beautiful view! I almost psyched myself out a couple

times. I'm no quitter!! Excited to start seeing results soon. How do you keep

motivated?? I'm kind of happy about the time change, I'm going to use it as

a jumpstart to get up early & hit the AM session or start my day at the gym.

Enjoy the end of the weekend and have a great week!

xo

Time to kick butt

I'm back.  I was thinking of folding up the blog because of some bullying and such I was getting, but after some time off and consideration I don't really care. I say what I feel and I don't need to hide who I am.

ON THAT NOTE!

Tomorrow, it's time to get down to business. 

These last six month have been pretty intense. Good, bad, sad, emotional... I've never really felt all of these emotions or learned so much about myself, my life and the people around me. I've had a lot of moments of happiness in the saddest part of my life. I don't know how much faith I have but I do believe that things happen for a reason and even the hardest things are things we should value, appreciate and grow from.

Now, it's time to really make changes. I need to get back in my happy place, mind AND body... I totally read (listened) to Eat Pray Love and got the new Kings of Leon CD in the same day. The end of Eat Pray Love made me so happy I wanted to call everyone I've ever met and tell them I love them. The KoL CD makes me yearn for and desire every ex-love I've ever had. I wept listening to "The Face" WEPT! I called my ex to tell him that I think he's amazing and special and beautiful and I still want really good things for him, always. I don't want to say more than that because I am in a good place with that. I respect and love the time we spent together. I can't think about the what if's anymore. I'm happy now, today, in my heart. I even had the healed heart to form a crush. I totally blew it and disappointed myself but it knocked me on my ass but also showed me that there is potential out there. I will find someone to laugh, dance and adventure with. And until then, I have some amazing people to be with and dance with and cuddle with and adventure with. 

So, back to TOMORROW! I bought myself a month unlimited Boot Camp!! I'm really scared. I'm not at all good at getting up early. I'm really bad at going to bed (it's already past midnight...ugh) BUT! I really want to do this but mostly I think I really need to do this.

snaps of the last time I was comfortable in my skin...

 fun/ideal body type goals...

gaga's sexuality, kate's arms, beyonce's legs...

So tomorrow the journey begins to be comfortable and happy in my skin. I know what parts of me I love yet it baffles me when I feel at my worst and I STILL get hit on. It does happen. So now I am going after the body that I've missed. I want to feel healthy and sexy and most importantly comfortable in my skin. 

 

^I am excited to eat A LOT OF THIS. Salmon, cherry tom's &

trader joe's spinach, raspberry&walnut salad. I do love to eat but

I am more &more aware of the things I should eat. Funny it took 

me a quarter of a century to fall for tomatoes &tom juice. Blame

my love of bloody mary's ;)I will report back tomorrow&OFTEN!

Wish me luck.xo